11 April ‘13
The quote is by E.L. Doctorow. For those who were wondering what asshole made it up. And no, I was not trying to offend anyone. I am very sorry if I did, but it was not my intention.
For the people who have never tried to write, this will probably be a whole new world for you. Writing is something magical. You can do whatever the hell you want, when you want, wherever you want it. But it has a downside they often forget to tell you about..
Writing is a big part of my life. I always carry a notebook with me, and twenty pens because god forbid they might all run out of ink but one. And when I am not having a writersblock, I can absolutely lose myself in my own stories.
NaNoWriMo is a good example to show you how this works. If you truly want to know what being a writer feels like, this is the way to find out. I have been doing it for 5 years, and every time I learn a lot about myself.
This is what happends to me when I write:
At first, it’s fine. I’ve only had one cup of coffee and the words are coming nicely. I feel good about finally getting the story out of my head and I just love how my character is doing exactly what I had planned for her.
But then something strange happends. My character doesn’t agree with me. She wants to go talk to her ex and work things out, instead of goig on that free trip around the world. She’s now calling with her best friend to ask her what she thinks what she should do. And I just sit there, watching the screen and all these things have happend. I go through my notes, but nowhere do I find a note that says that my character should deffinitely go make up with her ex. She was supposed to travel the world!! How did you let this happen! But I am not allowed to go back and edit, it’s NaNo!! November is for writing, than comes the editting! Now what?!
So I struggle with the words and you try and find a way that okay, they can hook up again, but she will go on that trip around the world. I decide that she will just have to meet some hot stranger somewhere in Rome. My character laughs at me, muttering that I actually believe that I will win this from her.
I have discussions with the characters I have made up. Yes, this really does sound like schizophrenia. And maybe all writers really are crazy. Because if you only knew how frustrating it is to watch your characters do these aweful stuff, knowing that you are the one who will have to clean that up again. It’s like having a kid, reallly.
But.. no matter how much I may curse, I am in love with the written word and I can’t imagine a life without ever writing something again. It is a part of me that I am not willing to let go of.
.. maybe I really am schizophrenic.